Diana Anastasia
Tintarella de Luna (Extended Prose), November 2022
Digital Film

Self-shot. Prose piece over a tango that has been produced using samples

Tintarella de Luna Extended Prose is a plea to the heavens, from a very confused soul. To liberate herself from the burden of being in love, while at the same time coming back to its grip intermittently. The writer is fighting between emotions and duty, what she thinks is expected from her. She wants salvation. She knows her capriciousness in love is wrong. It won’t lead her to the right path. And so she is asking for guidance, and forgiveness, but sometimes the pull is too great.

It started with a poem and a backing track produced using old tango samples and new piano arrangements and vocals. The film was shot between the UK and Catania in Italy.

TRANSCRIPT

Dear heaven
I give you all my prayers
all my love
and all my sex
is for you

It’s been almost a year
And it’s been made clear to me
that I must forget him
that he must forget me
if I am to go to heaven
if I am
to be saved

So I pray
I pray…to forget him
I pray…he forgets me

He- the one with the flashing eyes
and lips like cupid
He cannot summon me
anymore

It’s judgement day
and I am imploring you
to be lenient
And I am begging him
to stop distracting me
because he is like gravity
and he keeps pulling me down 

I don’t want this to be interpreted like
there is some sort of
chance
There is no chance
Our eyes don’t touch
Our hands are occupied
in more virtuous
tasks

Oh Virgin Mary
I’ve worked so hard for this
I’m so perfect for this
No other candidate is as good as me
I’ll be your cool headed, white marble martyr
Never thought I’d be martyr but here we are

I can serve you

In truth- he might just be a mirage
I’ve only seen him alone
He’s not grounded on Earth and I don’t know what Earth he’s grounded on

It’s really the unknown

I don’t want that?

I don’t need to explore. I am past that
I know where I come from and where I belong
and it’s this place
of no tomorrow
no past and no mistakes
who’s colour fears no future
because I am the future
An urn of light and pleasure
And it’s this place…that I don’t need him in

Just promise me 
that I will get to sip from the lips
of ecstasy and
receive the nectar that I was allocated
I am ready now

Though when he speaks to me
the one with the silver hair, brown but celestial
I hear music
He makes me doubt I ever had the authority to dismiss me

This need to be with this child-like angelic being
has never happened
This is new
An opportunity

If only I can be fast
and take it
with the speed of invisibility

It is always better in your imagination
Yes
But my God, you are so believable
It is so sublime
It can be half as good
and worth it

My prayers continue
I’m on the floor
I would drag myself across the seven continents
Or he could drive

I always knew you were the one
The way you came into being,
like an immediate response to my specifications
This whole literature we share
It’s inconclusive

How can I know, for sure?
I must continue to pursue this until I know
And then I can be certain
Only through the experiential one can be sure
Nothing is to be left unchecked, unattended,
unexplored, 
No doors left unopened
Rule number 1 of scientific research
and of sex

After that, one can relax
But not before, are we crazy? 
Before 
is the time to enjoy the earthly pleasures 
that I was promised. 
I was sure…choosing this body would give me some sort of advantage or 
guarantee. 

It’s fucked up, 
that this is where it ends, 
and I didn’t get anything to belong to me

Indeed nothing belongs to me 
and so I am clean. I belong to nothing 
I am free
so I am ready, my Virgin, 
you see that I am?

How wrong I was to think 
that I could stay away from you
for one day even

I found peace now
knowing that I will be accepted
in the realm of the impossible
and the divine
God knows I found he impossible
and I nodded, agreeably

Divine invincibility
one has to have to face you
How could I be prepared?
I found restraint I never thought possible
What creature are you?

You were right when you said
that maybe-